How Could I part-1

                                HOW COULD I...?     

 I never relish the taste of most interesting feeling called “Love” before I came to my engineering college. Everyone has dream to read in IITs and, I had too after being studious whole year but when results out I found myself in wretched condition. My whole life was ruined by the result , this is the case of trauma  . But the life is what you make it so I decided to move on. I scribble my mind with my body to my college , which is not petite as I think of it.

 College has collection of large building which includes libraries, lecture halls ,boys and girls hostel. And my best-loved place  the tree under which I have some respite after drowsy classes. As every college in India my college has also symptom of raging with which I suffered in first day of my college.

 I was walking in the thong of students thinking about home in rapt attention suddenly thong stopped  because someone squealed in delight ,I looked around  few of our seniors were standing in front of Royal Garden whit their grim faces waiting for fresher students to snatch the freedom and ruled over them. I felt vulnerable but condition went wretched when there eyes stuck on me. My legs start shivering but I hold my fist so hard to face them.

 One of them roar "you witless boy wearing jeans and shoe come here"  I looked  around frantically but they all wearing formal, I was only  a boy wearing jeans and shoe. There was no way to wriggle out of it and  I was not in any mood to relent so I  took few steps towards them, it like they found something for making filthy joke. They started throwing vexing questions ,who’s answer I really don’t know at that time.

Do you know about the dress code for the fresher students?? One of the senior asked in his frowns voice.

I looked at them sullenly and replied in low voice No I don’t ,this is my first day in college.

But my sullenly face didn’t turn them mushy .

Don’t try to give roots about your mistakes, this is your first time so we leave you , next time you will be responsible for your plight.

I walked leisurely towards my room thinking about the situation I have to confront in my college. I was totally forlorn , I felt cringe going through all this. After reaching the room I tried to draws some music to abating the jitters but the ambience was strangling me so I called my mom .My mom pick up the phone and she yelled out “why are you not calling me since you reached there”??

 I was busy in college and adjusting my stuffs maa , I replied softly knowing my mistake.

Ok how is your college today ??

Great maa it is better than I think of it ,I had some fun and I met new friends. But she understand the faint voice of me and started being anxious about me.

Are you alright beta ?? Your voice doesn’t seem alright .

It is due to fatigue, I wanted a respite I call you letter maa.

I hang up the phone call before I turned mushy on phone.

The college had to provide the dress to fresher students but they didn’t make it soon. So I had to  wear formal dress which I brought from nearest market and the bag given by the college in which the name of our college had written in bold letter, it was the  worst bag I had ever seen. I started going college with close-cropped hairstyle instructed by the seniors, formal dress without belt and formal black shoe, I looked totally reckless about my dressing sense but this was my destiny so I had  to accepted this.

The ambience was nuking me from inside , I felt strangle in  college. The condition went at ledge when all fresher were escorted to class. I was feeling like I am in jail with lots of bestial people having vexing rule . I was scrunched everyday by the raging of the seniors. The real smile never came to my face those days it was always smirk .

One day I got a phone call from my closest friend. Someone called me after a long time , he found my number from my home it feels like I am existing in the world  to be remember. I talked a lot with him ,we talked about our colleges, raging we suffered from , the fresher party which was about to come ,our apartment and food arrangement .I was burst out in a guffaw after a long time, I cherished to talked to him after having horrible day . But suddenly a question for which I was not ready at that time asked by him .

 Have you any girlfriend in college Arpit?? ,he chuckled

No I replied in low voice.

Then there must be someone you like "Haan", he muttered.

Her name strike in my mind abruptly ,her lovely fetching smile started revolving around ,I saw many glimpse of her in front of my eyes at eerily silent night.  

My senses back when he shrink  , Are you lost somewhere??

A feeble answer by me this is due to network problem bro. Smile changed into laugh. He managed to play prank on me. I hanged up after few minutes by saying good night to him…...