HOW COULD I...?
I never relish the taste of most interesting
feeling called “Love” before I came to my engineering college. Everyone has dream
to read in IITs and, I had too after being studious whole year but when results
out I found myself in wretched condition. My whole life was ruined by the
result , this is the case of trauma .
But the life is what you make it so I decided to move on. I scribble my mind
with my body to my college , which is not petite as I think of it.
College has
collection of large building which includes libraries, lecture halls ,boys and
girls hostel. And my best-loved place the
tree under which I have some respite after drowsy classes. As every college in
India my college has also symptom of raging with which I suffered in first day
of my college.
I was walking in the thong of students thinking about home in
rapt attention suddenly thong stopped because someone squealed in
delight ,I looked around few of our
seniors were standing in front of Royal Garden whit their grim faces waiting
for fresher students to snatch the freedom and ruled over them. I felt
vulnerable but condition went wretched when there eyes stuck on me. My legs
start shivering but I hold my fist so hard to face them.
One of them roar
"you witless boy wearing jeans and shoe come here" I looked
around frantically but they all wearing formal, I was only a boy wearing jeans and shoe. There was no
way to wriggle out of it and I was not
in any mood to relent so I took few
steps towards them, it like they found something for making filthy joke. They
started throwing vexing questions ,who’s answer I really don’t know at that
time.
Do you know
about the dress code for the fresher students?? One of the senior asked in his
frowns voice.
I looked at
them sullenly and replied in low voice No I don’t ,this is my first day in
college.
But my
sullenly face didn’t turn them mushy .
Don’t try to
give roots about your mistakes, this is your first time so we leave you , next
time you will be responsible for your plight.
I walked
leisurely towards my room thinking about the situation I have to confront in my
college. I was totally forlorn , I felt cringe going through all this. After
reaching the room I tried to draws some music to abating the jitters but the ambience was strangling me so I called my mom .My mom pick up the phone and she
yelled out “why are you not calling me since you reached there”??
I was busy in college and adjusting my stuffs
maa , I replied softly knowing my mistake.
Ok how is
your college today ??
Great maa it
is better than I think of it ,I had some fun and I met new friends. But she
understand the faint voice of me and started being anxious about me.
Are you
alright beta ?? Your voice doesn’t seem alright .
It is due to
fatigue, I wanted a respite I call you letter maa.
I hang up
the phone call before I turned mushy on phone.
The college
had to provide the dress to fresher students but they didn’t make it soon. So I
had to wear formal dress which I brought
from nearest market and the bag given by the college in which the name of our
college had written in bold letter, it was the
worst bag I had ever seen. I started going college with close-cropped
hairstyle instructed by the seniors, formal dress without belt and formal black
shoe, I looked totally reckless about my dressing sense but this was my destiny
so I had to accepted this.
The ambience
was nuking me from inside , I felt strangle in
college. The condition went at ledge when all fresher were escorted to
class. I was feeling like I am in jail with lots of bestial people having
vexing rule . I was scrunched everyday by the raging of the seniors. The real
smile never came to my face those days it was always smirk .
One day I
got a phone call from my closest friend. Someone called me after a long time ,
he found my number from my home it feels like I am existing in the world to be remember. I talked a lot with him ,we talked
about our colleges, raging we suffered from , the fresher party which was about
to come ,our apartment and food arrangement .I was burst out in a guffaw after
a long time, I cherished to talked to him after having horrible day . But
suddenly a question for which I was not ready at that time asked by him .
Have you any girlfriend in college Arpit?? ,he
chuckled
No I replied
in low voice.
Then there
must be someone you like "Haan", he muttered.
Her name
strike in my mind abruptly ,her lovely fetching smile started revolving around
,I saw many glimpse of her in front of my eyes at eerily silent night.
My senses
back when he shrink , Are you lost
somewhere??
A feeble
answer by me this is due to network problem bro. Smile changed into laugh. He
managed to play prank on me. I hanged up after few minutes by saying good night
to him…...
